Making a post to let you know that I am not dead. And eating well. And working out. And I’m sorry but I’m so busy! But ill post a really good post tomorrow. Promise.
I am slowly getting to the point where I can do this. So far, I can get my feet up on the wall and move my hands back about and inch! Lol, working on it though!
I love these!!!!!
Well I know what I’m trying once I get home.
so i got sick in bosu class today.
we were about 30mins in and i got a POUNDING headache and was slightly dizzy. so i went and got a drink of water, came back into class to keep trying to go, and stopped mid-plank to turn in my bosu to go home.
now i drank water this morning. and around 7 i had some greek yogurt, then right before class i ate a special K protein bar. which should have been enough to get me through class, right?? ((yes i know that on average i should eat more calories then that before a class but i was busy! i do not have an eating disorder)) aanyways…
back at my parents house. not crying all the time. decided to stay friends with austin. lonley. eating again.
if tears were gold…
theres just no good time to do this. there is no easy way. there is no way that wont hurt like hell for both of us. i dont think its official yet. i cant tell. but my reasons are things that he cant change, and i just dont know. i just dont know. i just dont know.
i dont want to hurt him. i dont want to hurt him. i dont want to hurt him. i dont want to hurt him. i dont want to hurt him.i dont want to hurt him.
i hate myself for hurting him